Further Surrendering & A Farewell?

Entering into my second mentorship I had a hard pill to swallow.

I was in the midst of creating a 3 month mentorship container and all of a sudden I stopped.

I paused.

I will never forget sitting back in my chair from tying on my laptop outside and feeling into this program.

It was HUGE.

Like way bigger than me.

I know the work I had done on myself up to that point always had been, but creating that offering felt MAJOR.

I HAD to BECOME something I wasn’t in order to hold an incredible healing space that I had in mind.

I just wasn’t there yet.

Who did I need to bring on to support me?

How do I become this person, this future self that can hold this kind of space and succeed at creating a really incredible thing?

Soon, I’d find the answers.

It was about February of 2018 at this point. I had completed my first mentorship, in limbo with where I was going because my first mentorship ended so abruptly, but I put my trust and faith into what was happening.

I knew whatever growth I was doing wasn’t over.

I kept feeling nudges and bumps to move up to North County but every attempt was thrwarted.

That’s when we started mapping out what it would take for us to move up to Oregon.

I leaned into Surrender and asked the Universe to help me.

I tried my best at remaining calm and focusing in on my family life.

BUT IT WAS HARD.

I hated living with my extended family.

It didn’t feel safe. I LOVED them. But something was scary.

We never saw eye to eye. I belittled for the way I was living and raising my family, it just didn’t feel right.

Nobody understood me, and the very thing I was healing from, was right in front of me, confronting me every step of the way.

My mother and I never had a healthy relationship. No boundaries, little respect, and it all made me very angry.

I NEEDED to get out of there, I NEEDED a way out.

My stress levels were high. I was working with energies that were bigger than me, I was pulling in everything around me, and felt so entrapped in everyone else’s fields (which I didn’t have words for then).

I was energetically drained.

We had little to no money and we were desperate for a better life. Especially after Cj’s sisters passing.

We just wanted to rebuild, move on, and move forward.

At this point, most of my healer friends were made online. I had little to no contact with anyone in the field other than online or within a healing group or circle. No really close ties. It was a very foreign thing for me to have that sort of relationship with someone in front of me in person.

 

The women who first validated these galactic energies I was working closely with had this amazing service at the time called an Art of Truth.

 

I had one made and it was an artists rendition of my soul’s essence. It is stunning.

It’s designed to keep me aligned to my higher purpose and meditate on when I need reminding of what I am doing and how I’m made to feel.

 

She created a Facebook group where all her Art of Truth customers could share their art, connect, and see who resonate closely with whom.

It was exciting, fun and the closest thing I had to “healer friends”.

 

Then one day browsing through the different pictures I was captivated by this other womans photo. Not JUST her Art of Truth but her face, body, and hands in her facebook photo.

 

She was a Shaman.

 

Her essence, her beauty and her strength felt SO familiar to me. As if I KNEW who she was. As if we played and hugged and laughed with each other before.

 

It was STRANGE. I had no idea what soul family was like until I saw this womans face.

 

So I contacted her, I told her about some of the things I had been experiencing and I trusted she had something to tell me.

 

And she did.

 

She taught me how to clear my energy, source myself from the earth to ground in all the loving divinity and be able to THRIVE within my own energy field.

 

And that began another mystery.

After I took a course with her, I stayed in contact and kept following along with what she was saying because it all felt so real and true.

 

She was helping me in the smallest, yet biggest way I couldn’t ever have imagined. And the magnitude is still unfolding.

 

Then all of a sudden I had another awakening.

 

From then on, I have committed to this lifestyle of being a healer. I could FINALLY claim it, OWN it, be SEEN in it.

The time and work I had with her, has been invaluable in so many ways that continue to unfold for me and my family.

But BOY has it made me POWERFUL in my own light!

Especially as I’m calling in my tribe.

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I describe some of the ways we can be working together in the VERY near future.

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I’m leaning into deep Surrender and trust as my domain and webhosting is coming to a close, and the nudge for me, right now, is to move onto something else for my webhosting needs.

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I LOVE hearing your stories, and LOVE connecting with those of you whom are on you path.

Lean in. Grow. Leap. Jump. FLY!

 

 

 

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