Self-Love & Acceptance

If you dug up a picture of me ten years ago or any other “embarrassing” thing of my past, I’d tell you how much I love that girl in the photo you have.

I’d tell you how she served me and loved me back and how much joy she’d bring to me.

I LOVE her.

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I recently had an interesting interaction with somebody close to me.

It made me realize how much inner peace I have achieved, how far I’ve come, and how willing I am to move forward from everything.

I AM PROUD of myself in my healing.

I’ve let go of  A LOT of attachments to who I want people to be, or who I THINK I should be and who I THINK everyone else wants me to be.

I’m actually ok with exactly who I am! AND THAT’S SO LIBERATING!

I used to be afraid of “her”. The one that was soft and gentle with her heart wide open “ready to be broken”.

At least that’s what I was telling myself.

But now I realize there is power in my emotions.

There’s POWER in OWNING precisely who I may be in any given moment.

Me! Loving myself

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And despite what any one else is thinking about me, I LOVE me SO unconditionally, that I can now shrug my shoulders at anyone’s judgements of me. 

Because now I know it’s not about me. Their judgements of me, is more about them. 

And while I have cognitively known that, I’ve come into CONTACT with that and now embody that within me.

For instance, when I have a judgement about somebody else, I realize it’s just a deep, unloved place within myself.

Some of those things are harder to find than other, “because GOD forbid I be the same way!” as this person I’m judging.

Those things are REALLY good to look at because those judgements become barriers.

Barriers to love and true connection.

I’m ok with being seen now.

I VALUE being seen in my authenticity. What you see is what you get and I’m not apologizing!  (Unless I really need to of course).

And I set aside any judgements of myself which means I can love unconditionally.

THAT’S POWERFUL!

I’ve found my strength in God, and strengthened my trust in him.

I‘ve found a church community to support me and love me through this. 

It was a weird thing for me (a judgement) to be in a church “worshiping” while also having these intuitive/mystical ways about my life.

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Love is patient, love is kind! It does not envy….

I had to let it be seen and loved on before I could fully come into acceptance of who I was.

And I don’t hide this with my church family. I’m not afraid of being seen. 

God’s love for me is SO special to me. Now anything I do, (not that there was a lack of it, but just a lack of understanding), is done with him in mind, the greater good in mind, and love in mind.

It’s a whole new respect for what I do and who I do it for.

I feel more safe, and more seen with him on my side.

I let his love transform me and it’s been, I feel, the only way I’ve been able to move forward in a new, special way with my family. 

I’ve been in contact with them, and it’s been really revealing at how much I had resisted their love for me.

I held on to too many things. I wanted them to be something other than they were.

That was conditional love.

I’m so glad we took the time we needed to move forward for us to heal, and to realize how deeply I can allow myself to love again.

And I realize how that immaturity got in the way of connecting.

Now I can be more graceful to other people when they feel defensive against me.

I can love and respect people from afar because I realize their hurts, their pains, are not ultimately about me. It’s their story. Their journey. Their path to healing. 

I now realize it’s MY responsibility and my right to surround myself with people who are LIKE me, and who honor and respect me.

And I’m so proud of that!!!

This month I’m talking a lot about the Journey to Self-Love.

There will be a series of blogs RIGHT HERE beginning July 1st!

I can’t wait to love you and guide you through your own journey to Self-Love and Acceptance too!

Comment below with ONE thing you’d love to love more about yourself, or where you struggle to come into acceptance with in your life.

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Loving you! Thank you!
💋Majesstik Grace

Building New Foundations

After we stopped communicating with my side of the family, a huge shift occurred within our own little family. Our priorities, our mindsets and our foundations became shaky. And then we started to rebuild.

My husband and I felt more connected to each other
I could express parts of me I didn’t even know I was hiding, a more soft gentler part of me.
I felt more embodied in my femininity because of how connected and deep my relationship went with my husband and his side of the family. 

I could HAVE FUN! I felt like I could play and laugh again with out hearing some ones else’s unwarranted opinion.  AND focus on things that were important TO ME instead of worrying about what other people were saying about me behind my back.

A weight had been lifted. I could be myself again.

It was an intense emotional uncovering patterns and habits that were established VERY early on in infancy for the very sake of survival.

Some of it was learned from other generations I was to learn.

Like shutting down my body in response to feeling good.

It was programmed into me through a LONG history of desensitization. (We can get into that later.)

But I broke us free.

My daughter is my everything in this process of healing and creating more solid boundaries and

BRAND NEW foundations that have NEVER

Been in place in the history of our families combined!

Like being more easeful and present. 

Like being loving and accepting of EXACTLY what is happening instead of running away and hiding from it. 

Like taking our time to make decisions instead of rushing or hurrying into something for the need to please someone else or make somebody else happy.

These are OUR new foundations. 

Building New Foundations

We’re Choosing love.

Love of ourselves, love of the present moment, love of each other.
The Love we carry in our hearts that make us SING

And love for future generations

And creating loving lasting relationships that matter.

So I have an invitation for YOU! 

If you’re feeling suppressed
Held down, held back
Frustrated infuriated
Then come.

Come see what’s happening in the stirrings of your soul with me.

Book the Foundations program from NOW until June 15th and receive a FREE group session! (valued at $150)

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The first FIVE people who want to started in this journey.

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THE BEST WAY to get started working with me is by simply reaching out and connecting, talking and getting to know me first.

Then if it FEELS good, then let’s play!

We can decide which service is best for you and how we can REALLY get started.

There were A LOT of practices in place to get me through this deeply healing and transformational time for us as a family. And I wish to be your guide and mentor through your own journey.
And I wish to guide you, hold you, and work with you together in your own healing journey.
For you, AND your family.

Because  I believe your story, your heart song, your joy, means something to everybody. We can ALL benefit from YOU rising.

Magic Blessings!

Thank you,
I’m looking forward to knowing some of you more deeply and love you along your journey too❤️

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Much love,

Majesstik Grace

What Does It Take to Break Cycles and Patterns?

Overcoming traumas and formulating our own awarenesses

I’m currently undergoing massive shifts in my own personal life.

As you know from my last few emails (get on the list here) and from my YouTube “Update” vlog and from my previous blogs (the one about realigning),

I stopped talking to my immediate family about 3 months ago.

Complete no contact. Nobody.

And what has been happening is a deep uncovering, healing and transformation from healing of traumas.

Overcoming emotional abuse and neglect.

I’m reprogramming old beliefs about myself and the world, that were SO deeply ingrained into me and now, I have fallen into Trust and Surrender once again.

I’m letting go of deep fears. What if I will never see them again? Who will love and support me? AM I EVER going to find my SOUL family? What does this mean for me and our little family? Will my daughter hate me? Or will she be able to forget?

Breaking myself open AGAIN. This is what that looks like right now:  “I NEED to open my heart in order to receive what I want. I NEED to be seen in who I AM in order to call in more of my tribe. I NEED to do this thing (which I’ll reveal soon) that will set my soul ON FIRE!!!”

And reconnecting the dots of my own soul and Spirit.

And in doing so, I’ve reclaimed most of my power back.

I’ve finally found boundaries that work for me.

I’ve found new ways to take care of myself.

I’ve found strength. Wisdom. And gentleness inside that I knew existed, but was covered up for fear of being seen. (The emotional neglect and abuse part.)

I was hiding underneath everyone else’s perceptions of me. Who I HAD to be in order to get my needs met for that amount of  time in my life.

Now, I see.

I see all the ways in which this conditioning has hurt me.

I see the ways in which my heart had to stay closed.

And in order to move forward, and really SERVE in the way I’ve been wanting,

I’ve  had to set MYSELF free!

And it took these 3 things to get there.

1) Worthiness– feeling worthy enough to receive the life I dreamed. A fun, easy going, emotionally intelligent, loving life. I had to BELIEVE with ALL of my being I was WORTH it. And I am.

2)Confidence– I had to stand STRONG in my convictions of worthiness even in the deepest darkest of times and in the thick of situations, I had to CONFIDENTLY stand up for what is TRUE for ME.

3)Self-Love– I’ve had to love ALL these unloved parts of myself. I’ve had to learn. I’ve had to SEE how my thoughts influence my reality and how I’ve played a part in EVERYTHING. I’ve had to love it. Thank it. And let it GROW. I felt WORTHY enough to do that. I felt WORTHY enough to deeply love and appreciate myself.

If I didn’t have these things, I wouldn’t have had the courage to give myself the type of FREEDOM I was looking for. The type of FEELING GOOD that I was WANTING for myself and what I wanted for us a family of three to experience on the DAILY!

And as long as I’m giving myself what I am worth, I’m GOOD. SO GOOD!!!!!!

Even in my own relationship with my husband, I can’t worry about making him happy. He has his own path to walk and if we can do it together AMAZING! STUPENDOUS!!! even.

But if I’m NOT giving myself what I am worth, then I know I will be in suffering.

I’ll fall out of alignment with my truest Self and that’s when life becomes HARD.

There multiple layers as to WHY I am so passionate about working with mothers but for the most part, it’s because I’ve been so disempowered and I have risen from the deepest of the deep, that I know what it feels like to find my own light without the love nor support of my very own family. And my mission is to reconnect us all back to that within our own conscious families. 

This has ALSO required me to let go of multiple roles and rules to life that I grew up knowing.

It was the type of program running in my head that  had me putting everyone else’s needs and wants before my own.

It was limiting behavior to keep me small and out of my own light.

Rules  like:

Like I HAD to sit still in my chair when eating

I COULDN’T let myself be silly with my child and LIKE it!

I couldn’t PLAY and be happy.

And I HAD to anticipate the needs of somebody else to make them happy (the trauma of abuse)

I HAD to walk on eggshells around everybody to ensure my physical and emotional safety

I HAD to do EVERYTHING right in order to be seen as a “good girl”! (even though there was no pleasing anybody)

But those rules no longer apply here!!!

That was  just what my brain was telling me.

I’m restructuring and reestablishing habits, emotion patterns and cycles that ACTUALLY serve me in my heart desires and moving forward into the light of my truth and SHOWING UP as my whole Self.

It’s not easy.

But I know anything is possible through Trust and Faith.

I am limitless!

And so are you.

You know, I ask myself everyday now “is this serving me? Or am I busy pleasing somebody else?”

We are hardwired  to please others. Especially as a baby.

We have to ensure our very survival.

So as an adult it can be hard to let go of those very things that kept us going and alive for all of those years, and behaviors, patterns and cycles that no longer SERVE us as we want to reconstruct and rebuild a life that we LIKE and FEELS GOOD to US!

It can be scary, hell even terrifying to establish these new ways of being.

But that’s what it’s all about.

That’s how we evolve. THAT’S how we grow.

“What do cycles and patterns look like within your family unit? How can we identify them to move forward and do the work to break them if they are no longer serving us?” You ask.

The perfect example of this is through the movie Coco.

Coco LOVES and wants to be a musician but his family has banned ANY type of music because of the relationship Coco’s great great grandfather and great great grandmother had together.

His great great grandma felt abandoned by her musician husband and when the truth was uncovered (spoiler alert) that he was murdered, they could move on and ALL live happily ever after

But UNTIL Coco came along, everyone was in the pattern and emotional cycles of NOT allowing music within the family, at the detriment of their growth as Coco came along.

We let so much of the past inform our future.

Please, let us ALL break free from that.

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Thank you so much for being here and seeing me through my own transformation.

I can’t wait to reveal more of how I’m moving forward into my light!

 

Further Surrendering & A Farewell?

Entering into my second mentorship I had a hard pill to swallow.

I was in the midst of creating a 3 month mentorship container and all of a sudden I stopped.

I paused.

I will never forget sitting back in my chair from tying on my laptop outside and feeling into this program.

It was HUGE.

Like way bigger than me.

I know the work I had done on myself up to that point always had been, but creating that offering felt MAJOR.

I HAD to BECOME something I wasn’t in order to hold an incredible healing space that I had in mind.

I just wasn’t there yet.

Who did I need to bring on to support me?

How do I become this person, this future self that can hold this kind of space and succeed at creating a really incredible thing?

Soon, I’d find the answers.

It was about February of 2018 at this point. I had completed my first mentorship, in limbo with where I was going because my first mentorship ended so abruptly, but I put my trust and faith into what was happening.

I knew whatever growth I was doing wasn’t over.

I kept feeling nudges and bumps to move up to North County but every attempt was thrwarted.

That’s when we started mapping out what it would take for us to move up to Oregon.

I leaned into Surrender and asked the Universe to help me.

I tried my best at remaining calm and focusing in on my family life.

BUT IT WAS HARD.

I hated living with my extended family.

It didn’t feel safe. I LOVED them. But something was scary.

We never saw eye to eye. I belittled for the way I was living and raising my family, it just didn’t feel right.

Nobody understood me, and the very thing I was healing from, was right in front of me, confronting me every step of the way.

My mother and I never had a healthy relationship. No boundaries, little respect, and it all made me very angry.

I NEEDED to get out of there, I NEEDED a way out.

My stress levels were high. I was working with energies that were bigger than me, I was pulling in everything around me, and felt so entrapped in everyone else’s fields (which I didn’t have words for then).

I was energetically drained.

We had little to no money and we were desperate for a better life. Especially after Cj’s sisters passing.

We just wanted to rebuild, move on, and move forward.

At this point, most of my healer friends were made online. I had little to no contact with anyone in the field other than online or within a healing group or circle. No really close ties. It was a very foreign thing for me to have that sort of relationship with someone in front of me in person.

 

The women who first validated these galactic energies I was working closely with had this amazing service at the time called an Art of Truth.

 

I had one made and it was an artists rendition of my soul’s essence. It is stunning.

It’s designed to keep me aligned to my higher purpose and meditate on when I need reminding of what I am doing and how I’m made to feel.

 

She created a Facebook group where all her Art of Truth customers could share their art, connect, and see who resonate closely with whom.

It was exciting, fun and the closest thing I had to “healer friends”.

 

Then one day browsing through the different pictures I was captivated by this other womans photo. Not JUST her Art of Truth but her face, body, and hands in her facebook photo.

 

She was a Shaman.

 

Her essence, her beauty and her strength felt SO familiar to me. As if I KNEW who she was. As if we played and hugged and laughed with each other before.

 

It was STRANGE. I had no idea what soul family was like until I saw this womans face.

 

So I contacted her, I told her about some of the things I had been experiencing and I trusted she had something to tell me.

 

And she did.

 

She taught me how to clear my energy, source myself from the earth to ground in all the loving divinity and be able to THRIVE within my own energy field.

 

And that began another mystery.

After I took a course with her, I stayed in contact and kept following along with what she was saying because it all felt so real and true.

 

She was helping me in the smallest, yet biggest way I couldn’t ever have imagined. And the magnitude is still unfolding.

 

Then all of a sudden I had another awakening.

 

From then on, I have committed to this lifestyle of being a healer. I could FINALLY claim it, OWN it, be SEEN in it.

The time and work I had with her, has been invaluable in so many ways that continue to unfold for me and my family.

But BOY has it made me POWERFUL in my own light!

Especially as I’m calling in my tribe.

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I’m leaning into deep Surrender and trust as my domain and webhosting is coming to a close, and the nudge for me, right now, is to move onto something else for my webhosting needs.

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I LOVE hearing your stories, and LOVE connecting with those of you whom are on you path.

Lean in. Grow. Leap. Jump. FLY!

 

 

 

What does being in Alignment mean?

And what does it have to do with manifesting?

What is it like being in Alignment with the life you are trying to create?
Why does it feel like life can be HARD sometimes?
How do we redirect this energy in a more positive way?

Let’s examine what it’s like to be in alignment with the life you’re creating and how GOOD it feels to be in this flow of life.

Let’s say you’re wanting to create something new in your life, whether it be a business, a new lifestyle, or build new foundations for you and your family.

Once you get CLEAR, down to every detail on what it looks like on what you need what you want and HOW you want it to feel, (a.k.a visualization)

ANYTHING less than what you have imagined for yourself is a NO,

because it’s crystal clear to you what you need, what you want, and HOW you want to feel!

You already know the answers to what you are seeking once you gain this type of conscious clarity with life and the Universe.

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Clear Quartz: Protection, Unconditional Love, Grace & Clarity

THAT’S what we Spiritual Teachers, seekers and doers mean by being in alignment. (and also a hint of Manifesting).

It’s being laser focused and clear in your body, mind, and Your Spirit on what is good for you, your highest and greatest good and what you are TRULY desiring and co-creating out of life (the manifesting part).

Anything that does NOT match this idea of what you need, want and desire, and HOW you long to FEEL is being done out of fear.

It’s out of alignment, it isn’t loving energy and this fear, is taking up energetic space in your life!

It becomes difficult to manifest, it becomes strenuous, and HARD to live life, it becomes hard to trust in the timing of everything,

it makes it difficult to RECEIVE that at which you’re desiring, and sometimes can even be OVERWHELMING in everyday life.

For example, answering a phone call from somebody that continuously angers and upsets you.

While there are multiple layers to this aspect, let’s examine it from alignments sake.

Two people are ALLOWED not to get along. (Spirituality doesn’t teach you that much most of the time.)

Sometimes there are karmic imprints that are meant to be fulfilled on both sides.
Somebody is meant to say “NO. I’m not doing this.”
“This isn’t good for me.”
“It doesn’t FEEL good to me.”
“I’m moving on with my life.”

This the HARDNESS of the relationship is telling you that this person, is out of alignment with whom you are meant to be and what you are TRULY wanting (that clarity part).

Of course, there are the mirroring aspects as to which you may be meant to learn more about yourself through them, or the triggering aspects as to which these triggers are wounds that are meant to be healed through, however, when ALL of these aspects are exhausted,
and there are no other charges to be examined,
it’s time to pull the energetic plug.
It’s time to say NO.
It’s time to set a boundary and clear out the energetics between you and this things that is out of alignment so that you may invite, and introduce more loving,
forgiving, and healthy Qi energy back into the area of your life where this said person, place or thing was taking up too much energetic space.

It makes ROOM and space and is an invitation for something more loving to take it’s place!

While the clearing and healing of this person, place or thing that has been out of alignment is quite the process, and can lead to a Dark Knight of the Soul, it’s an absolute necessary step to allow more space and something new and different to come in!

It’s ALL working for your BEST interest. Especially since it was done out of the very NEED to have what you want and desire to create!

So, while you’re saying yes to this one thing that’s not in alignment with you your desires, your greatest vision, there’s something waiting to come that IS matching what you’re actually wanting needing and LOVING!

So let’s recap:

What does it feel like being in alignment?
It feels easy
It feels light in your body
It doesn’t feel scattered in your brain
It feels clear and concise
It feels genuine and within integrity and justified
There’s a seep truth and you’ll KNOW it’s alignment and good for you and your vision for the life you are creating

What does it feel like to be out of alignment?
Anxious
Hard
Struggling
Tense
Worrisome
Full of fear
Like you’re not having your needs met
Or like you’ll be tripped up in something strange or weird with something or somebody
It’s not the WHOLE truth and you’ll feel like you’re playing along with something or someone

How do I find the courage to get myself into alignment you ask?
LOVE yourself. Love ALL of yourself! Love the unlovable spaces within you that you cannot even stand so that you may develop this courage, this ease, and this grace to set more loving, more healthy boundaries for beautiful, harmonious alignment and life that you’re conscious creating!

Once you start loving yourself unconditionally, it’ll become easy to follow the energy of deep, unconditional love available to you out into the world.

And you’ll never want anything less ever again.

So tell me about you? How can you tell if something is not in alignment with you, your desires and what you’re consciously creating with life? What are some of your own warning signs from the Universe that it’s time to cut chords and energy with something, somebody, or some place?

I’d love to hear below in the comments!

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An Exercise in Forgiveness & Self-Love

I found myself living at the extremes

I was doing spiritual and emotional damage unconsciously

luckily Source spirit had an answer for me

one that i was not expecting in the least of course, how can these lessons be within our sight

too much control too much manipulation of my god like self, jeese, if only i could just relax and know that i am always taken care of my human form doesn’t really appreciate me doing that kind of thing

i forgive myself for trying SO HARD to make this thing called life work

I forgive myself for trying to control this whole thing without faith in god

i forgive myself for being so afraid of not being taken care, for fear of being judged to death, for being so afraid of making a mistake or that this way IS NOT the right way

i release control of that

i forgive myself for doing things to my daughter that i had no clue what the repercussions were and have been

i forgive myself for trying to change her and manipulate her into being something she isn’t

i forgive myself for not listening

i forgive myself for not hearing

i forgive myself for ignoring and spiritually bypassing everything including grief

i forgive myself for grieving and being sad

i forgive myself for being sad in front of mia

i forgive myself for not being perfect and messy

i forgive myself for being human and having human needs

i forgive myself for doing damage emotionally and physcially

i forgive myself for wanting to put my daughter in box

i forgive myself for wanting to change her and my spouse

i forgive myself for wanting to change them SO badly

i forgive myself for wanting to be right all the time

i forgive myself for being frustrated and mad and angry at what i cannot change

i forgive myself for hurting my mother in law and father in law unintentionally and my mother as well for being a brat and stomping my way through life for my own insecurities i forgive myself for wanting what i want SO badly at any cost to me and my family

i forgive myself for spending loads of money we did not have

i forgive myself for budgeting and doing and the money money money problems we’ve encountered from me recklessness and disempowerment

i love myself for taking care of my daughter everyday day in and day out while cj is at work

i love myself for feeding her foods that are for her highest and best at any time

i forgive myself for this whole thing this whole situation we’ve fallen in love with now

i forgive myself for not actively trying to be a mommy first and making mistakes along the way

and being a bad friend

i love myself for trying to fix my mentality and my self worth in the process

i love myself for trying again to make things better to be a better person for myself and my life for my highest and best

i forgive myself for pushing my way through life

i forgive myself for being needy and insecure

i forgive myself for being mean and hateful judgey and shameful

to myself and others i forgive myself for being a shitty friend to jeannie

i forgive myself for judging her relationship with coltie and what she was doing even though it was her best it was what she knew how to do with the tools she was given i am proud of her and love her so much as a mom and as a human and now as spirit

i forgive myself for not asking for help when i need it for fear of being hated

i forgive myself for not wanting it

i love myself for giving myself the time and space i need to recover from all of this

i love myself for forgiving myself

i love myself for starting over doing it again picking back up dusting myself off and giving it another go

i forgive myself for giving it a valiant effort for YEARS

i love myself for trying so hard at the same time

i love myself for asking for what i need

i love myself for doing

i love myself for not doing

i love me

i love myself i love myself i love myself

i forgive myself for expecting

i forgive i forgive i forgive i forgive myself

thank you sweet equinox for this seasons blessings.